Ever since August 2012 I have struggled with anxiety, depression and agoraphobia, and for various different reasons which go way back to when I was a lot younger that I never told anyone, and it all hit me at once, the only thing I can compare it to is when you constantly put away your clothes in your wardrobe, you force to door shut because you don’t want everything falling out and the moment when you think you’re safe everything in your wardrobe falls out. That is basically what happened to me, I hid everything away for so long and all of a sudden it catches up with me.
When My Anxiety Arises
There can be lots of different situations that can cause my anxiety to rise, for example being in crowded places. I am usually really good when I’m with someone like my husband, my in laws, my parents, however I struggle with going a long distance on my own, which is increasingly difficult because I get extremely frustrated that I can’t be the way I was around 3 years ago, to be able to go out, walk down the town or go a long distance on my own. Other situations can be when people make jokes about anxiety and that it’s easy, you just need to calm down, it’s ridiculously annoying when people say, just calm down, it’s not a big thing, but the thing is if I get myself into a position where I’m agitated, my uncomfortable, my heart rate is high and I am getting close to the point where I’m hyperventilating then calming down isn’t as smile as it is to say.
What Calms Me Down
My husband usually knows the warning signs or when I feel panicked, it usually means I am holding onto his hand and squeezing, and he will help me with my breathing techniques so taking 3 deep breaths in, and 3 deep breaths out. If I can’t do the breathing techniques I start tapping my hands or feet, or imagine somewhere I am comfortable, somewhere that I can relax, I think of what I can hear, what I can see, what I can smell, everything, it is so relaxing and makes me feel so much better.
It Is Important To Get Help
Anxiety can be tough, it is so unpleasant, but not only that if it gets to the point where your anxiety controls your life, you need to speak to someone, if I hadn’t got help I wouldn’t be able to walk out my front door on my own, I’m not saying medication, therapy can really help. Therapy might sound like a bit step even a bit much for some anxiety, but this is about you being able to live your life with anxiety that you can manage, not your anxiety managing you.
You Shouldn’t Be Ashamed
Anxiety isn’t something that anyone should be ashamed of, I have found that trying to hide that I suffer from anything just makes it worse, there is a stigma, a stigma that shouldn’t surround it because at some point in our lives we get anxious about a lot of things, for example moving into uni, financial troubles, family life and emotional trauma are all things that could cause anxiety. It’s okay to be honest, it’s okay to struggle, you are not alone, not ever, high five for anxiety!
Here is my high 5 for anxiety, where is yours?