I’ve talked a lot lately about how I have been feeling, in terms of my relationship with myself, it’s definitely been such a difficult road for me in general to build a healthy relationship with myself. It’s like as soon as I start to love my body and myself something happens and I end up feeling like my body is the worst thing in the world! I have officially decided to write an open letter to my body, you might feel the same, you might feel differently, but this is how I currently feel about it right now.
I know I don’t always treat you with the love and respect that you deserve, and for that I am sorry. I try my best to love you, but sometimes I feel like you’re my worst enemy. I know that I don’t always look after you the way that I should, I don’t always give you everything that you need and for that I am sorry.
My body dismorphia doesn’t help me when it comes to loving you, I see it completely differently to way other people see you. My husband thinks I’m beautiful and loves me, but I don’t ever understand how.
I’m sorry that I try suck my tummy in sometimes, pull you down with how I would change you, how I would change the way you look thinking that I would be happier that way, but I just don’t know anymore. I’m your biggest critic, I see all the problems rather than look at how beautiful you truly are.
You keep me going, you keep me healthy, you never stop looking after me, but not only that I rely on you for everything and I mean everything.
But this letter isn’t all doom and gloom.
I make this promise to you, I promise to look after you, feel you good food (along with cupcakes and cookies on the odd occasion) I promise to workout regularly, I promise to learn to love you in as many ways as I can. Not only that, try to see you through positive eyes. I can’t promise that I won’t be negative about you ever, but I promise to do everything that I can to appreciate the things that you do, and the way that you look.
I won’t ever have the perfect body, I will always have lumps and bumps but I will always try to love the things that you do for me, and love the curves that I have.
I am sorry I have treated you so badly in the past, I promise it won’t happen again.
Do you feel the same? Have you had similar experiences? Leave your response in the comments!
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