I’m A Survivor
Depression has done a hell of a lot to me, physically, mentally and emotionally and it is one of the toughest battles I have ever had to fight, and it is one that unfortunately I am still fighting everyday, I sometimes wish that I wasn’t but unfortunately there is nothing that I can change about that now, I just need to realise that I will get there and as long as I have the people I love around me, everything will be okay.
Taking A Step Back
Sometimes things can get a little too much, and not only do I know that but the people around me know that too so it can really help when it comes to noticing the signs. When I do have a terrible day with my depression, it is important to take time out, it is important to turn off the phones, say goodbye to social media and make sure that I am focusing on me.
Sometimes when I get so into things it means that I forget that taking time for me is important too, but getting the balance is definitely a struggle, and one that a lot of us face, and I know with my depression it really does peak when I put myself under too much pressure.
Lots of people have different triggers, but for me one of the biggest things was losing my Nan, if you missed that post, click here and you can have a read. Things like bereavement, divorce, illnesses, money worries, job worries, divorce or any traumatic event could potentially cause a person to slip into depression.
I have been on medication, I’m not going to deny it, if I hadn’t I probably wouldn’t be alive writing this post (I know that is a bit morbid but I’m being honest) and I am not saying that medication is the answer to all of your problems, trust me it isn’t, there is no magic medication that will automatically take it away. The good news is that I am currently coming off medication (YAY!) it’s taking a while, it’s a slow process and adjusting is terrifying, especially where for the past 3 years of my life I’ve been fighting so hard, and now I am finally winning.
For anyone who struggles or has seen someone struggle with anything to do with mental health, you will understand how difficult it might be, however, even taking baby steps forward like challenging yourself to push your boundaries a bit further. For me it was going out the house on my own, I can now go for a walk in my local area without having my husband or anyone else with me.
I am slowly getting there, I’m not saying it’s going to be something that gets better automatically, but I’m enjoying my good days but in my bad days, I take them in my stride because those bad days will build better days.
The mental health battle is tough, it’s not as straight forward as calm down, or that saying smile it might never happen which drives me mad, making positive steps forward can be one of the scariest things you can do, but it gets better. If someone you know is going through this, please urge them to talk about it or see someone.
Mental health is just as important a physical health, healthy happiness can be achieved, I promise.