I have talked a lot about my mental health and anxiety but never how my anxiety has impacted upon my blog and my journey, which is a bit strange for me, because usually I talk about everything to do with mental health. So people might think that anxiety doesn’t come into play with this, but honestly it is a massive thing for me in the blogging world, especially where I feel like I need the approval of the people who happen to be around me.
When I first started honestly I was absolutely terrified, I have never been more scared in my entire life. There were so many bloggers on there who were so well established, who knew exactly what they were doing and then there was me, the person who was so timid that she had no idea what to do, whether I was doing it right or wrong, or if people were actually going to like what I was trying to do.
It is one of the biggest learning curves ever, especially when you’re trying to think, what is my niche & where do I fit in in the blogging world, because let’s be honest, it’s a massive world and a lot of posts get posted everyday so in the beginning I found it really difficult to stand out in the crowd. This caused me so much anxiety.
Then it is the actual talking to people, I mean actually going to speak to people and try to network with others was terrifying. I would get that little Twitter box up to tweet them and my anxiety would just flaw me, I’d be like, what if they ignore me, what if they think I’m weird, what if they think I’m strange.
I think with my depression to, I tend to look on the negatives and what is the worst that could happen, when in reality when I look on the positives, positive and wonderful things can actually happen!
Want to know the best bit though? When you reach out to people, it is one of the best feelings in the world! Start off small, like in blog chats, just take it easy, talk to others, if they respond to a question, speak to them, it can be daunting, and you will have all those voices in your head telling you that you can’t and that they will ignore you or that you’re not good enough, but let’s be honest, you’re bloody fantastic, you have so much to offer an amazing friendship and not only that you should never be defined by your anxiety.
I know having anxiety is tough, I battle with it every day, but that you’re too wonderful to even compare!
Let this be a reminder that if you ever want to talk to someone, go for it, give it a shot, we are all in the same boat and to be honest we should be supporting each other. I am always available to speak to, because well I love talking and I love meeting new people.
Push through, start of small, I believe in you and know you can do this!
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