I have regularly talked about my anxiety, how I have struggled with it, but also what I’ve done to allow myself to move forward with my life and hopefully get to a point where I don’t need medication any more. Even though I am slowly coming off my medication, there are still quite a few thoughts that go through my brain. I do have coping mechanisms but you can’t control what thoughts you have, and sometimes they just get the better of you, and that is okay, but know what is true and what isn’t. So what are the things that go through my brain on a regular basis! This is going to be a very personal post for me, so I hope you enjoy it!
1. Am I Good Enough?
I am the type of person that has never felt good enough for anyone, and honestly that is something I’ve always battled, and to this day. So when it comes to online, I still struggle, I think, am I doing enough? I am being a good friend? Am I working hard enough at my blog? Am I working hard enough to be part of the community? Even though I have lots of compliment about how supportive I am, I am my own worst enemy because yet again I still feel I am not good enough.
2. What If I Can’t Go Out?
Sometimes going out can just be too much for me, and I am completely honest with that because if I acknowledge when I am struggling then I can move forward. It’s usually because I feel like people are going judge me for the way I look. I am very anxious about my appearance especially because people have called me a lot of names because of the way I look. I am trying to move forward with that and focus on the positives and hopefully not let it effect me too much in the future.
3. Why Am I Being So Sensitive?
Sometimes when I go out, if my anxiety goes mad, then I become over sensitive to everything, and I mean everything! Someone could say something that is just so kind, and I could be really sensitive towards it, or maybe someone is joking around with me, then I might get quite hurt or upset. Not intentionally, but I can be very sensitive like that.
4. What If I Offend Someone?
This terrifies me, to the point where I have to usually over think everything I say and then forget what I am even replying to. If I say something and they don’t reply back, I end up thinking, did I say something in the wrong way or was I trying so hard not to offend them that I actually offended them anyway?
5. What If Something Goes Wrong?
I always think on the negative side, I say I like to be prepared personally, however, sometime it can just consume me! What if this happens, what if that happens, what if the sky falls down? It can just get way too much sometimes. Usually I fear that I will never move on with my life, or that I’m not going anywhere especially when I can see everyone moving forward with their lives.
6. Not Being Able To Control The Future.
I always end up worrying about something, but not being able to control what might happen. This I know is not only time consuming and actually stops me from living my life ultimately, which honestly isn’t the great because I could be doing something productive, but instead I’m worrying about what could happen and how I can’t control it.
7. What If My Loved Ones Are Upset With Me?
I’m always thinking that I upset my loved ones, so I try to hard and end up saying sorry constantly for the silliest things in the world, even if I have done nothing wrong. It’s can also be little things like why aren’t they replying to my messages or if they are, why are they replying with just one word, I must have upset them somehow!
8. Feeling anxious about being anxious.
I always feel anxious about being anxious, what if I end up being anxious when I go out and have a panic attack, what if when I go out, I get so anxious that I don’t ever want to go out again? What if I end up making the people around me anxious because they’re worried about me panicking and getting anxious?
9. Did I Turn My Straighteners Off? What If I Burn The House Down?
Even though I have GHD’s and they end up turning themselves off after a while I have to make sure that I turn them off and they’re unplugged because what if I do damage?
10. What If People Don’t Like Me?
This is my greatest fear, if people don’t like me, I know I shouldn’t be worried about what people think of me, but unfortunately it is my greatest downfall. I don’t need to be liked by people, I want to be liked because I want to be able to support others on their journey through life. Not only that if people don’t like me, I feel like I am doing something wrong! I know I can’t please everyone and I can’t be everyone’s cup of tea but I just like to hae people around me I can talk to and support, is that so bad?
Do you suffer with anxiety or are there certain things that make you anxious? What are some of the thought you struggle with daily? Leave your response in the comments!
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