A Letter To My Younger Self

The Photo Albums

Recently I have found lots of my photo albums from when I was about 11 all the way up till I was 18 (I haven’t filled the other ones up yet, but I will get there eventually, well I say that and they will probably still be there when I’m 50) and there are some real gems in there, definitely some drunk ones from my late teens, but I’m going to share those lovely (and possibly embarrassing) photos with you.

The Pout

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The scary thing is, I remember taking this photo, my good old Sony Ericsson got through everything, this wouldn’t be so bad if I didn’t look like I was about to kill someone and didn’t have that giant pout on my face! Although some good curling Amie, girl you did good at least!

 

To The Sky

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I’d like to hope I wasn’t the only one who decided it was a good idea to look right up to the sky and wonder if I could see the actual camera. Considering this was 2007, I think my eyelashes look pretty damn good & my make up is quite good!

Noseless

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I have no idea what I was thinking here although I have to admit, my eyeliner is on point, I’ve got some skills there I think!

Wireless

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This girl is my best friend, this was at the Wireless Festival in 2011, we literally had the best day ever! We saw The Black Eyed Peas, Plan B, Bruno Mars, Tinie Tempah and so many more, we had an incredible day!


A Letter To Myself

Dear younger Amie,

There will be times when things will be crap, times when all you want to do is cry, and times where you think the world is against and no one cares, but listen up girl, you’ve got this, you’re stronger than you ever believed possible.

When people try to bring you down, remind yourself that you’re fabulous in literally every way possible, when things get tough it’s natural, life isn’t easy, if anything it is bloody hard, but don’t let that stop you from living your life to the max. People will come and go from your life, the ones that stay, trust me they’re worth their weight in gold, they are there for you through thick and thin, don’t let anyone tell you what you can and can’t do or who you can be friends with because this is YOUR life.

You’re probably going to go through some of the worst points in your life but you will learn from it, trust me when I say it gets better, I struggle everyday I’m not going to lie, but going through anxiety, depression & agoraphobia has made you strong as hell.

I guess you’re probably thinking what about the people who caused you to feel like this? Most of them are gone and the time when you struggle, the people around you like your family (including your amazing in laws) & friends & husband (yes you heard me right, husband) will stand by you through everything, tears, panic.

You get married to the most amazing guy, he understands you better than anyone ever has, he knows when you’re sad and he knows when you’re struggling and he doesn’t even need to be near you to know that.

I’m not saying you will never cry again over what happened in your past, but what I am saying is, you grow, you become stronger, you learn and you realise that no matter what anyone ever says or does, they can’t break you, ever.

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2 Comments

  1. 26/10/2015 / 8:58 pm

    Aww, cute little Amie 😀
    I didn’t know how to curl my hair until about 1 year ago haha. You’re really talented. ;-D
    And I guess, every teenager has taken a noseless picture at least once in their life! And I loved those “to the sky” pictures. My mother hated them. She always said “ah, why don’t you take normal pictures?” haha

    Your letter is so emotional. And you’re so right and can be proud of yourself: You’re a strong woman and have built your life with positivity and people that care about you.
    And I’m sure one day you’ll punch those diseases in the face and they will never be seen again, because they have to hide from the strongest Amie ever. 🙂

    Love you, darling. <3

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      amiecadwallader@outlook.com
      26/10/2015 / 9:41 pm

      Awh darling, thank you so so much, I haven’t practiced curling my hair in so long, it’s been ages since I properly curled my hair, I think I might have to try again soon! It was quite hard to write that letter but it was definitely worth it! I love you too darling<3