Taking A Step Back
Recently I have been quite emotional for various different reasons, I have been focusing on a lot of the negatives when in reality, I live a very blessed life with lots of people who I love and adore more than anything in the world, and I have been spending a lot of time worrying about people who honestly couldn’t care less about me, yes sometimes I think that really hurts me because they meant a lot to me at one point in my life, but the point is, if they don’t care about me and wouldn’t be worried about me, why am I wasting time focusing on the wrong people?
My epiphany came a few days ago, I was called some vile names, I won’t name them, but at one point in my life I had cared about that person a great deal, they had meant the world to me, and it was someone who I shared so much of my life with and honestly I think I am accepting that not everyone will like, I will always have the fabulous memories with that person. I can’t change my past, but I can definitely change my future so it is time to shake off the negativity and focus on what I want in life, and that is happiness with my beautiful husband Paul and my loved ones.
When you are struggling in various parts of your life, when you are not very happy, or you’re so down you don’t feel like smiling it can be difficult to realise the amount of people you have around you when you are too busy focusing on the people that don’t care because you’re hurting.
Why Is It Important?
We all deserve to be happy, we all deserve someone who makes us happy, someone who is there to hold us when we don’t feel like doing anything and someone who supports us through the good times and the bad and we should never forget how lucky we are to have them in our lives.
The Personal Part
My Incredible Husband
Paul has been there through it all, through the good times when I couldn’t stop smiling, to the bad times when I was crying so hard he couldn’t keep up trying to catch my tears. He is one of the kindest & most genuine person I have ever had in my life. When I married him, it was the best day of my life, I smiled so much that my cheeks felt like they had stopped working, but not only that seeing him at the bottom of the aisle and finally saying “I Do” bought tears to my eyes. Just thinking about it now and how I felt on that magical day still makes me smile from the inside out and makes me the happiest person in the entire world. He is my best friend, the love of my life, my soul mate, the other piece of me, and even though this sounds so corny it’s all true because I will never meet someone as incredible as Paul ever in my entire life.
Paul, I love you with all of my heart, I always have & I always will, through the good times when we are laughing and through the dark times too, as long as we have each other, material things don’t matter because we have everything we will ever need in the world.
3 Of The Greatest People You Will Meet
(From left to right – Yasmin, Mia, Me & Megan)
Yasmin – Yas is my sister in law, she is an absolute sweetheart, she is my partner in crime, we literally have some of the greatest laughs together, but not only that, she is so supportive, she has always been at the end of the phone if I need her and vice versa. She is incredibly talented with her drawings (a post will be coming soon on thecurvaceousvegan.com which I am so excited about, and not only that as I like to put it, she is one of my closest friends.
Mia – Mia is my baby (well not a baby anymore) cousin, who I absolutely adore, I remember when she was born, it was one of the greatest days of my life, seeing this tiny little baby all curled up, me sitting right into the corner of the sofa so I could hold her, I remember her wriggling around in my arms and grabbing hold of my pinky finger, and opening her eyes, it honestly made me melt. I am so proud of her, I watched her do her gymnastics, and I didn’t take my eyes off her, she was incredible, I am an only child so I treat Mia like she is my sister because to me she is my absolute world.
Megan – Megan is one of my best friends, there is no joke about that, we are so similar but yet so different all at the same time, she has been through so much, she is my inspiration and my rock, I will never understand how she manages to stay so strong after everything that has happened, she someone that I could ring at 2am and she would be on the phone to me, and make sure that I was okay because that is the kind of friend she is. She is the person that would dry my tears and then turn around and say, who I am having a row with today. She has the most amazing partner in Ryan, and a beautiful baby to match, not only that she is a hard worker and an incredible mother, I know that both Paul & I are grateful to be 2 of Evie’s godparents.
Brother & Sister In Law
Leslie is Paul’s brother, he is an absolute diamond, when I dislocated my elbow he was so careful when he was driving, made sure I was okay, even told Paul to open the door because I physically couldn’t, and when he met the beautiful Lola over the 4 years that I have known him, I have never seen him happier. Leslie and Lola are perfect together, they are honestly absolutely made for each other and I cannot wait for them to get married. I do have another brother in law Michael who is an absolute sweetheart, he is a little chatterbox and has the cheekiest grin around!
Meet The Parents
My in laws (Far left) – They have been so supportive of me, through everything, from starting my blog, to being there when my mental health wasn’t good, even helping when it came to gradually going out more to beat my anxiety and agoraphobia. I never knew that I could have such incredible in laws who are so protective and kind, I don’t think I can ever express how grateful I am to them.
My Mum & Stepdad (Mum next to me and step dad on the far right) – My mum was the first person to notice the signs of my depression, she took me to the hospital, she supported me, she made sure that I had everything I needed around me, even dried my tears & when I couldn’t see my dad on his birthday Andy (my step dad) drove me up there because he knew how important it was to me to be up there to give my dad his presents.
My Dad & Stepmum (In between my mum and step dad) – When I as in my darkest days my dad got me to one of the top psychiatrists in the country, he knew how important it was for me to feel like myself again because as people put it, I was a shadow of my former self, he took me to all of the appointments, listened to me, even cried with me when I explained the situation, and even though we clash because we are so similar we adore each other more than words can say.
Kermit & Elmo
Lewis is literally one of the most hilarious people, he can be a pain in the bum sometimes, but he has a heart of gold, there have been many times that he has been there to pick up a lot of the pieces, and not only that they he never fails to make me smile. He is the kind of friend that when you’re down, he will make you smile but also poke fun at you (not in a horrible way) to take your mind off things.
He is one of the most caring guys ever, he has always been there for me through some horrid times, he has understood where I have come from but also he has always made sure that I am okay. We might not talk for a couple of weeks or a month, but we both know that if things were difficult or we had problems we would be there for each other regardless of what was going on in our private lives.
Like A Sister To Me
This is my stepdads daughter and grandchildren, Julie, Jayden & Sienna (not pictured her partner Peter) they are an incredible little family, they even came all the way down from Blackpool just to be there on our special day, the fact that they were there made the wedding perfect, the fact that I got to see her was the most important thing, words can’t describe how much I miss my sister, brother in law & niece and nephew, I wish they lived closer, but it makes it so special when we do get together!
Bloggers Best Friends
Because I don’t have pictures of everyone I have decided to tag people because then it is easier!