So yesterday (25th April) was my husband and I’s anniversary, we’ve officially been together 4 years. When I say that in my head it just seems like it’s flown by. It feels like yesterday when we took this picture and he met my mum for the first time:
And when we first went to the park and took this picture:
I literally cannot get my head around the fact that we’ve been together 4 years and we’ve never been happier. I get to wake up in the morning, roll over and see his smiling face, a face that has stuck with me through my worst times.
As most people know I have depression, anxiety and agoraphobia, and I do work hard at battling these everyday, however, this incredible guy, my beautiful husband, he never left my side, he came with me to as many appointments as physically possible, he held me close when I said I didn’t want to live, came with me to therapy, and honestly I wouldn’t be alive without him. He is my best friend, he is the love of my life, my soul mate. I know people say, how can you know who your soul mate is, you’re only 21, but here is my response:
A soul mate is someone who loves you even with all of your imperfections, a soul mate is someone who never gives up on you, even if you might have given up on yourself, a soul mate is someone who makes you laugh when all you want to do is cry, a soul mate is someone who knows when there is something wrong, a soul mate is that person who gives you those incredible first date feelings, every day. Paul is my soul mate.
I can still remember the day, every single moment, it’s crazy that I’ve been married nearly 5 months, but I’ve never been happier. People will say we’re still in the newlywed stage, but I don’t care, my depression can get bad sometimes, it can make cry, it can make it feel useless, but what it won’t stop me from feeling lucky or grateful to have someone as incredible as Paul by my side.
Paul is my inspiration, my motivation, my rock through the bad times, and my source of happiness through the good, he is the kindest, most caring, loving and down to earth guy I have ever had the measure of coming into my life, and I cannot wait to grow old and wind him up for the rest of our lives. Here is to the next chapter in our journey.
I will love you, stand by you and protect you till my very last breath Paul, forever and day, my love won’t fade.